skadihelias

I hope you're fucking happy, netizens.

I hope you're satisfied because you've taken a family member, a brother, a comrade, a friend, a leader, from the group. And you've taken hopes and dreams of a person. If you think you're that high and mighty, then GTFO your computers and get a fucking life.

Still feeling numb.

And I still hope that someone will do something and convince him to stay.

No one can replace you, Park Jaebum ♥

Oh, and before that, a meme stolen from freedomthisway. I think it's about whether or not I've been a bad kid, or something. What amused me the most is that I scored only half of what she did. I've never consider myself that good of a person, really. I just find that a bad reputation would only disadvantage me on most matters.

( Seems like I'm just a boring bad kid~ )

So, my dad is all better now, although he's still not allowed to drive a car and working for too long. Well, I think I can be relieved now. I just want him to take better care of himself so this won't happen again in the future. There's nothing I want more than the health and happiness of my family members. It's the most important thing, afterall.

On fandom...

I'm really sorry that I've been inactive at any LJ-related stuff lately. I feel sort of bored with KPop fandom. Lately there's only trouble and boring news, and hate memes. And I didn't come to the fandom for that. I find myself lacking the...enthusiasm I used to have over it. Not even on Super Show II (not that I don't want to watch the DVD once it comes out) or the latest Genie performance by Taemin, Key, Taecyeon, Wooyoung, and MC Mong (although I have to admit that it was a freaking fabulous performance, for lack of better word). And I'm worried for Taemin and Key's future, LOL.

Honestly, what I'm doing in fandom now is just downloading Arashi stuffs (the only boyband that will never fail to amuse me, ever) and reading long Harry Potter crossover fics. Is it just me or is every Harry Potter fic that has been crossover-ed with Twilight turning out to be disgustingly...oh, I don't even know the word for it. I just know that the language used in those fics makes me want to hurl into the toilet. Ugh... If I have to read about how 'inhumanly pretty' the Cullens are or how 'devastatingly handsome' Edward Cullen is, I'm going to kill the nearest person. And I haven't even read Twilight at all.

Oh, but I've come across a wicked Harry Potter/Gundam Wing fic. The best I've ever read, hands down. As I read it, I realized how much I missed the Gundam Wing boys. It is, afterall, my first fandom (and my first yaoi/slash fandom). The fic is titled Harry Potter and the Secret Link. If you are into Harry Potter and Gundam Wing, you should give it a try.

THIS

It's just... I don't even know anymore. I'm too tired for this and I don't want this bad news to ruin my happiness of coming back home to my family (even though it's kind of too late, I'm already feeling upset).

I've read the news. I've read the comments. I tried so hard to ignore all of these speculations, even my own, because I wanted to trust him. I don't know what to think anymore, seriously. I don't know whether I want to think that it's a real injury, or if I want to think that it's just yet another fake excuse.

This is yet another time when I wish I haven't got into fandom. I hate to be upset because of someone I have no business with. I need to get a life.

I felt that I should make an obligatory last post using my old computer, because I'm buying a new one within the next week. Maybe you'd think I'm being ridiculous here. But this computer has been with me for the last (almost) five years, and no matter how much I complained about it, it actually has only broken down (to the point that I have to bring it to the professionals to sort it out) once, which was four days ago (in which the motherboard crashed and died). Mine is the toughest computer in my entire history of computers, really XD This computer is the first computer that is actually my own, only mine (my computers before had always been shared between the occupants of my house), so I feel kind of sad that I'll stop using it in a mere few days.

Me, getting overly sentimental over an old computer. freedomthisway would be twitching on the floor, laughing, if she's with me at this time.

Okay, so the rest of this post will be done in bulletpoints. Because I'm scatter-brained like that.

☆ Today, 30 April 2009, is the 20th birthday of our dear Jang Wooyoung of 2PM!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU CHEEKY, FAIL-Y AND TOTALLY RIDICULOUS BABY!!! ILUSM ♥♥♥♥♥ Be awesome(ly gay) and fail as always, please~ :3

☆ Well, hello there, hotness~ Finally we see him again after such a long time. And looking better than ever too (except compared to Don't Don era because I'm biased like that XD). Sadly, this is just a CF. Oh well, better to see him a little than not seeing him at all :3 Also, I don't have anything to say about those pants (-_-) Although I rather like the ponytail :9

skadihelias (8:27:10 AM): he looks good in long hair
vv_lover (8:27:15 AM): ...
skadihelias (8:27:16 AM): like, a totally different image
skadihelias (8:27:20 AM): but good, i think
vv_lover (8:27:21 AM): meh.
skadihelias (8:27:25 AM): XDDDDDDDDD
vv_lover (8:27:27 AM): You're biased.
skadihelias (8:27:32 AM): indeed
skadihelias (8:27:40 AM): but i don't really like donghae in long hair
skadihelias (8:27:48 AM): so i doubt it's that much of a bias
vv_lover (8:27:48 AM): ... Indeed.

Also, deciding not to take any part on the fandom drama involving Kibum. I'm ignoring those who criticize him, and also ignoring those who defend him. If he wants to appear, he'll appear and I'll flail over it. If he doesn't, then so be it. I will no longer sweating over and using my precious braincells over matters like this. I'm trying to regain my previous attitude and opinion over fandom.

☆ About a week ago, I went to a supermarket. There was this small pet corner in it. And I spent a few minutes standing in front of the glass cages, mentally squealing about OMG THOSE HAMSTERS ARE VERY CUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUTE!!!!! They're seriously tiny, curling up together on the corners of the cage. There was this particularly lively one who kept running here and there hyperactively. I want to graduate soon. And if I happen to work in another town and have to live by myself (again), I'm totally getting a pet hamster. Maybe taking care of animals will take that mean, uncaring part of me? Also, curing my slight phobia over practically all animals XD

To close this post. Have a picture. Oh baby, you're such a slut :3



PS: Help?

WHY, F-LIST?! WHY?!

1) Post a list of up to 20 books/movies/anime/TV shows/video games/bands etc. that you've had an obsessive fannish love or interest in at some time in your life.
2) Have your f-list guess your favorite character/member from each item.

K-Pop/J-Pop
1. Super Junior (duh) - Lee Donghae and Kim Kibum thrift
2. Arashi - Ninomiya Kazunari brailleun
3. SHINee - Choi Minho conflate & vv_lover
4. So Nyuh Shi Dae - Choi Sooyoung conflate
5. Kanjani8 - Yokoyama Yuu freedomthisway
6. One Day (2AM + 2PM) - Nichkhun Horvejkul thrift

Manga/Anime
7. One Piece - Monkey D. Luffy freedomthisway & jasmedra
8. Perfect Girl Evolution - Nakahara Sunako freedomthisway
9. Bleach - Kira Izuru freedomthisway
10. XXXHolic - Doumeki Shizuka vv_lover
11. D.Gray-Man
12. Kyou Kara Maou - Conrad Weller freedomthisway
13. Trinity Blood
14. Skip Beat - Mogami Kyoko freedomthisway

TV Series
15. House, M.D. - Dr. Gregory House thrift
16. The Big Bang Theory
17. IT Crowd
18. Supernatural - Dean Winchester freedomthisway & jasmedra
19. Hana Yori Dango
20. Boys Over Flowers - So Yijung thrift

I stay in the fandom for the ghei and the dance and the music.

Not for this shitty drama.

This? Can result in moar shitty drama. No matter how well-intended it is (I'm sure the poster and Teukie means well). What I wouldn't like is that I have a feeling that the moar bitchy side of only13 (you know, the SJM only5 and anti-Henry & anti-Zhoumi) will use this to gloat and bash again. I love Super Junior, but I have to admit that most of them haven't done much to tell E.L.F to stay the fuck away from Henry and Zhoumi. By doing this, Teukie didn't do much to the controversy itself, I think.

I didn't even comment on that post because I was afraid I would say something...inappropriate. That post do wonders to my temper srsly, and not in a good way. I commented on one of the comment tho, because Siwon macro on that comment was my exact thought on this matter.

Okay SM, just give me the second season of EHB and nobody gets hurt.

Super Junior may give great musics and eyecandies lately, but not enough LOLs to make me sane. My source of Super Junior LOLs is only miracle______, the fanworks comm, while in Arashi, their regular shows and old shows provide more LOLs than the fandom. That's what Arashi is good for *worships Arashi's LOL-worthy programs and the wonderful subbers of the net*.

BREAKING NEWS ASDF;LJK!!!
Zhoumi x Kyuhyun Just Shot Up to Rhee's Top 5 Super Junior OTP

♥
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© 觅贤's baidu thread

OMG! OMG! OMG! I was spazzing like crazy when I saw these pics. I mean, KYUUUUUUUU how can you look so small and fragile and BOTTOM next to Zhoumi?! My heart cries in joy for youuuuuu!!!

Sorry Sungminnie, you're ultimately cute with Kyuhyun and all but I can NEVER resist bottom!Kyu. I love him too much. And when I love my boys I love them playing bottom. Kibum is an exception. But he bottoms for Siwon

Okay, so the current OTP rank:

1. KIHAE (Nothing beats them. NOTHING)
2. SIHAN (I'm a sucker for this dorky, made-for-angst couple)
3. KYUMI (Thank you so much, Super Junior M!!)
4. SIHAE - KYUHAE (Can't choose and obviously Hae-biased)
5. EUNHAE - SIBUM (Can't choose, again. One is border-abusive and cute and the other is lsadfhasfjlsjl HOT)

*makes a KyuMi folder*

*goes of to spazz for some more*

I just finished reading Super Junior Friending Meme.

There are 13-15 years old kids in there.

O_O

I think it's scary

When I was that age, I was just this clueless, clean, and innocent girl who just discovered internet and did not have any idea about the hellfire that is fandom.

biased_muses biased_muses biased_muses

There's only one fic right now, and it's Super Junior. But I'll try to write more fics for more fandoms in the future. Wish me luck X3

*cries*

*beats head against wall*

OH FUCK YOU LEE DONGHAE!!!

Just...stop being so damn pretty and cute and slutty, will ya?

That applies to you too, Kim Kibum!

D<

I'm so sorry, fandom. I'm too weak against things like this...

*goes back to dig more KiHae moments and watch the subbed first episode of VS Arashi XD*

a.k.a Super Junior

freedomthisway (that bitch) forced coerced me into watching them yesterday.

I HATE YOU, FUCKER!!! *cries*

And I'm (somewhat) hooked. At least to two (or four?) of their (massive thirteen) members.

I HAVE NO TIME FOR ANOTHER FANDOM!!! *clings to Arashi fandom*

But Donghae and Hankyung are just SO DAMN CUTE *cuddles both of them* And of course, my OTPs are Kibum x Donghae (or anyone x Donghae, really) and Shiwon x Hankyung (don't say anything, freedomthisway, I won't hear anything from you regarding my second OTP *stucks tongue out*), at least for this moment.

But still, I still love Arashi too much to move completely into this fandom. Maybe I won't fangirl too much over them :D

And I still hate you, freedomthisway. No love for you!!!

This is actually the first hate meme I've ever read.

I've wasted a lot of time reading this meme. This was actually very amusing at first (no, seriously). But it got more and more lame by each comment.

*sighs*

Why did I even bother?

*goes back to the sane side of the fandom*

I originally posted this as a reply on peroxidepest17's journal.
And please keep in mind than I don't mean to bash anyone in this post.

I'm relatively new to JE world and I first knew them from local J-culture magazines and peroxidepest17 fanfics. Which puzzled me that when I decided to take a plunge into JE fandom, I fell hard for Arashi, who is never featured in her fics, like, at all. I love Arashi despite their total failure in dancing and singing, compared to other JE boybands (except Ohno, who is really good at dancing and singing, but a total failure in his idol attitude). And I mean no harm by this comment, considering I love Arashi as the silly dorks they are, as much as the other Arashi fans.

I'm quite confused that despite peroxidepest17's total exposure of NewS and awesome fics of them, I don't seem to be able to like NewS wholeheartedly. Koyama (who reminds me of my brother) is still very dear to me, like, in I-really-want-to-marry-this-guy kind of love. And Ryo reminds me of myself (who fails at empathy and kind words). I don't really like Tegoshi, and that's quite confusing, considering how cute and totally loveable he is. This made freedomthisway asked me, "Don't you usually fall for the cutest one?". And I said to her, "This one doesn't work. Don't know why..."

I don't like KAT-TUN (but I like reading peroxidepest17's fics about them, guess I love her fics too much). I probably almost hate them if not for my admiration and amusement toward Koki (who I think is one of the cutest and dearest boys of JE despite his gangsta appearance) and the fact that Ueda in fics is so damn funny and loveable (and constantly bickering with Ryo). This made another friend asked me, "But they're good looking, and smartly-dressed. You LOVE men who are smartly-dressed." And I answered, "Dunno. There's something about them, I don't know what it is, that rubbed me in the wrong way."

How do you explain things like that, actually?

When I first go into Arashi fandom, I was baffled in the size of their fandom itself. I thought, "WTF? These guys are not even THAT good looking! And this is Japan so they're probably can't sing to save their lifes as well." But then I got their whammy and going ga ga over their pictures in five days flat.

That's kind of scary...

And I'd like to revise my opinion toward Taguchi Junnosuke aka Junno of KAT-TUN. At first, I think he reminds me of my brother as well, but that only works if I stared at the still pictures of Junno. My brother can never be as happy, childish, and dorky as Junno. My brother is a calm, caring, and quite well-dressed young man who charm his way to his girlfriend' (and ex-gfs') and their mothers' hearts. But he can be a little bit insensitive and sarcastic sometimes.

( Oh, and a quiz ;) )

I'm a Sexy Osaka Man. LOL XD

freedomthisway!!! If you have time to look at my journal, then update yours, bitch!!! XD

*coughs* Okay...

It seems that I've managed to get myself out from Jensen Effect (well, not really, but enough) and start browsing through my other fandoms. I began visiting love_mode, club_sion, and conradxyuuri again these past two weeks after spending a few months in Supernatural fandom (like I said, it's the Jensen Effect). Wow, it's amazing to know how much I've missed in these fandoms.

Holy crow. I almost forgot that I am a member of Viewfinder fandom.

ASAMIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YAYZ!!!

*runs off to club_sion to begin some mad fanfics-collecting there*

One Piece : Monkey D. Luffy, Roronoa Zoro
Naruto : Uzumaki Naruto, Sabaku no Gaara
Bleach : Kira Izuru, Ichimaru Gin, Kurosaki Ichigo
Harry Potter : Harry Potter
Supernatural : Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester
X/1999 : Sumeragi Subaru, Fuuma Monou
Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles : Syaoran
XXXHolic : Watanuki Kimihiro, Doumeki Shizuka
20th Century Boys : Kenji, Otcho
Tennis no Oujisama : Shishido Ryoh, Ohtori Choutaroh
Rock Musical Bleach : Kitamura Eiki (Kira Izuru), Tsuchiya Yuuichi (Ichimaru Gin)
Musical Tennis no Oujisama : Kamakari Kenta (Shishido Ryou)
GetBackers : Amano Ginji, Midou Ban
Fullmetal Alchemist : Edward Elric, Roy Mustang
CLAMP Gakuen Tanteidan : Takamura Suoh
Magic Knight Rayearth : Lantis
Cardcaptor Sakura : Syaoran, Kinomoto Touya
Viewfinder : Takaba Akihito, Asami Ryuuichi
Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge : Oda Takenaga
Ouran Koukou Host Club : Hitachiin Hikaru, Hitachiin Kaoru, Morinozuka Takashi
Neon Genesis Evangelion : Ikari Shinji, Nagisa Kaworu
Slam Dunk : Mitsui Hisashi
DNAngel : Hiwatari Satoshi
Yamada Tarou Monogatari : Mimura Takuya, Yamada Tarou
Omake no Kobayashi-kun : Kobayashi Kengo
Final Fantasy VIII : Squall Leonhart, Seifer Almasy
Kyou Kara Maou : Shibuya Yuuri, Conrad Weller
W Juliet : Miura Yuuto
Silver Diamond : Sawa Rakan, Senrou Chigusa
Koori no Mamono no Monogatari : Ishuca, Blood
Beck : Tanaka Koyuki
Hanazakari no Kimitachi e : Nakatsu Shuuichi, Umeda Hokuto
Death Note : L
RG Veda : Yasha-Ou, Ashuura
Battle Royale : Urabe Shuugo
Fruits Basket : Sohma Kyou, Sohma Hattori, Sohma Kureno
Gakuen Heaven : Endou Kazuki, Nakajima Hideaki,
Yami no Matsuei : Tsuzuki Asato, Tatsumi Seiichirou, Muraki Kazutaka
Gundam Wing : Quatre Raberba Winner, Trowa Barton
Hikaru no Go : Shindou Hikaru, Touya Akira
Megami Kohousei : Zero Enna, Hiead Gner
Love Mode : Shirakawa Naoya, Aoe Reiji
Peacemaker Kurogane : Yamazaki Susumu, Kitamura Suzu, Ichimura Tetsunosuke
Saint Beast : Genbu no Shin, Kirin no Yuda
Troy : Paris, Hector
X-Men : Cyclops. Wolverine
Band of Brothers : Eugene G. Roe, Ronald Speirs
Prison Break : Michael Scofield, Alexander Mahone


Wow... That's a lot...